Trying to forget

the pain I saw you undergo,
that I have been clinging onto for the past few months
that has distorted my thoughts, my sleep, my dreams
with nightmares about your future

Let me shake you off, pain.
You have been growing in my heart
and taking up a lot of space there
leaving no room for anything else

for forgiveness, for kindness, for an open heart
and mind, for the ability to be reached
by those who need me, somewhere, all has been locked out
by the pain you shared with me, the pain I must forget